Summer Solstice 2020

The summer solstice is the beginning of the season of light.

Today, mars enters is native sign of Aries, where it will stay for 6 months, an unusually long time. We are in the middle of three back to back eclipses. The solstice was preceded by a solar eclipse and next week, there will be a lunar eclipse.

To welcome the summer, I did a singing bowl virtual concert with Mark Biehl. It was held by WOOM Centre. This even was originally scheduled to be held at COSM and I was reminded of it by a post on the Tool band website.

The summer is the season of light.

I have a relationship with the winter solstice because I was born right before this solstice. The winter is about turning in and working on oneself. In the earlier part of my life, I had to master my self; my moods, food, thoughts. I experienced seasonal depression when my diet wasn’t appropriate for me.

During the last four years, I aligned my lifestyle and I’ve had good, productive winters. I’ve tuned into the season and gotten work done. I composed during the winter and started a morning meditation practise. The turning in felt good.

Now it is time for me to cultivate a relationship with the outside world. The summer is about turning outward; this season is about working with the community. It’s about being extroverted and being outside.

It’s interesting how the summer solstice starts off with entry into the sign of Cancer, the cardinal water sign.

The element of summer is water and emotions. Emotions are about relating, to oneself but also to others. When I think, “season of light”, I see light of various light sparkling across rippling water.

The astrological signs of summer season are Cancer, Leo & Virgo. Last week, I did a yoga asana practise and I felt into my sacral chakra and it feels really tattered. That’s hard for me to face. This season of Cancer feels like the time to work on my sacral chakra. With Leo, I will ascend to the solar plexus and with Virgo, go into the heart. I feel aware of this chakra mini-series. It represents the interior pillar of the body. 

During the last year and half, I’ve had a lot of healing around self-esteem and energetics of sexuality. I used to go to EDM parties and dance and I had people try to tag the areas around my hips. 

I once had a crush on this guy who would only interact with me if I was letting him NLP me or manipulate me. These interactions got really impersonal and I felt disrespected. I stopped interacting. 

For the last year and a half, I’ve been healing low self-esteem that welcomed emotional abuse. Last week, I finally had the courage to feel my sacral chakra. For a long time, I could not really acknowledge how tattered it felt. 

In my 20s, I felt empowered sexually but I was gullible and I attracted predators. I couldn’t even understand what they were trying to do. I seems that I attracted the attention of “men” who tried to enslave me because I was sexy. Now, I realize that they are slaves to their sexuality. 

I have learned that, people treat others the way that they think of themselves. It reminds me of Don Luis Ruiz Miguel’s book “The Four Agreements”. One of the agreements is, “Don’t take things personally”. People treat you the way that they treat themselves. Most of us are projecting and reflecting.

This Cancer sign season, I choose to learn more about flow, emotion and creativity. I want to understand the sacral chakra a bit better. To be honest, I don’t think that I understand how sex and emotions work. I’ve had experiences of sex and ego and power but not so much about emotion and connection. 

During the last year and a half, I’ve come to better understand how low self-worth facilitates emotional abuse and manipulation. I was experiencing a lot of manipulation, psychological and psychic abuse because I did not value myself. This created holes in my energy body. As I have healed, my energetic integrity has improved.

The summer the season of light. This solstice is me turning the page. The past is over. I am at peace.